Where I've Been and ANOTHER 12 things?

Hi. It me! It's been a while... like... over a year. If you've been wondering where I've been and what I've been up to, which I'm sure you're not but I will tell you anyways. I haven't been doing much honestly, or at least that's what it seems like. All I've been doing is working and going back to my apartment. I know I've shared some of my mental health struggles on my website before but this just goes to show that mental health is something that constantly needs to be cared for. Clearly based off of my absence I have not been caring for myself the way I should be.

Anyways, here I am! If you've missed me, you can thank my fabulous and naggy sister who tells me EVERYDAY that I need to get my shit together and get back making content. (BTW she's the most brilliant and best person I know so if she says I should do something I probably should. My sister low-key has always controlled my life and I'm kinda okay with it...) It's not that I don't enjoy doing these things, IT'S THE FACT THAT I AM NOT TAKING CARE OF MYSLEF! I have always been the kind of person to think "If I can fix and make other people happy, then I will be happy." I would rather other people be happy/content and me be upset because I am able to get over it and regulate that. Does that make sense? If not I'm sorry but that's HOW I FEEL! And you know what? That's just not how the cookie should crumble folks. So I'm jumping in feet first... is that how it goes? Even though I feel so lame and not really wanting to write and post and do all these things that I say I love... I'm going to do it because I know I will be happy after.

So long story short, that's what I've been doing and that's what's kinda not really been happening in my life along with all the other annoying adult bullshit. Hope you enjoyed and let me get to the fun random 12 things!

12 THINGS.... or maybe 10 IDK!

1. My bestie girls are coming!!! THIS IS NOT A DRILL! If you follow me on the IG you would have seen me post almost a year ago or so that I spent the weekend in Long Beach with my two best friends who I've known since kindergarten! We made a promise to see each other at least once a year since we're (they) are so busy. So they are coming to see me in Reno! They won't be coming until the end of July but I think about it everyday and, uggggh I just can't wait!

2. Typically I DON'T TAN. Not that I don't want to be tan... It just doesn't work for me. I just burn and then go back to being the palest nugget around HOWEVER... I'm currently a lil bronzed! It's very uneven, and I have terrible tan lines, but we have to take the wins where we can. Don't worry, I'm also applying sunscreen while becoming a tan queen. We must protect our largest organ at all cost.

3. Believe it or not I have a ton of video ideas in my bullet journal. Be on the look out for my YT comeback because it will be DOPE. TBH it will most likely be mediocre but plz support me because my cancer moon needs it.

PS Can we all talk about our birth charts together because I would love that!

4. I'm in the process of moving or will soon be and I just got the call this morning that I was approved for this condo that I've been obsessing over for the last month! I may or may not actually move there just depending on if I can find something better or cheaper, but I'm really hoping that this is the one. I would include the Trulia link so you all can obsess too but thats probs not safe and I don't want you to steal it. I'm also planning on filming the moving process so you will see it eventually.

5. Speaking of moving! I've been planning on starting a garden when I move and I think about my future garden everyday. I want to grow my own fruits and veggies and I think it will give me so much to look forward to. Can you imagine when I make a fresh salad with zucchini, spinach, and peppers from my cute condo garden? How Reno of me right?

6. I've been thinking a lot about my lack of motivation and why I don't want to do anything. I think it's because I'm lacking purpose. So I have concluded that I need to learn to do things that will be good for my soul if you know what I mean. I want to accomplish 3 things: something that is active (I love hot pilates), something for others - people, animals, or the earth. So I want to start volunteering, and I want to start doing something artistic like get my YouTube going again, finish my book, or learn to play the piano. Seems like a big goal and a lot to accomplish but mind over matter.

7. I want to to invest in a pair of birks, but I'm trying to decide if the knock off pair that I have from Target is good enough to save me the $100. My Grandma Pru was a lifelong Birkenstock wearer, and would tell me to buy a pair because they will last me a lifetime. She was the smartest lady I knew so I will most likely listen to her because she was right about everything else like the original Mummy movie and Singing in the Rain.

8. OB (my bf) lost my air pods (I KNOW! MEN AINT SHIT) and I'm waiting for him to buy me a new pair. While I'm waiting I'm borrowing his beats and honestly.... they suck. I really like that I can't hear any outside noise but they hurt me! I feel like they put so much pressure on my head. 2/10 recommend.

9. I'm on the hunt for a a robe. I feel like cutie ladies wear robes and have their shit together, and I want to be like that. I don't want a big fluffy one because I'm a hot girlie so maybe something like breathable and light but not sticky if you know what I mean.

10. It's already June... can you even fathom how quickly this year is going? I was thinking about this yesterday and we are closer to fall and winter than we are far away. I'm not going to lie, I listened to some Christmas bops yesterday and I felt alive again.

So that's all I have to say as if that wasn't a lot, but I love blog posts like this because I just get to tell you everything I've been thinking. Thanks for reading if you've made it this far. I appreciate you!

K love you bye forever!